Secret Cancer

So much is happening this week. My husbands company has its quarterly report. As CEO, he has to give a few speeches, speak to investors and analysts, plus do media interviews, some are live and some are for news articles that come out later in the week. I do not know how he is going to do all this.

We also have two doctor appointments this week and multiple blood tests. One of these appointments is extremely important. We will be discussing his treatment going forward because his blood values are not looking good. So, while he is driving a multi-billion dollar business this week, I will be researching different treatment options and preparing for his doctors appointments.

He literally leaves all of his health care decisions up to me. I wonder what his doctors think, when he just sits there, while I discuss with them, side effects and new treatment options. He literally is the smartest person I know, yet he leaves the matter of life and death in my hands. This is a huge burden to carry. I love him so much. I want him to live forever. I am scared that if I make one wrong decision it could cost us dearly. I do not know how doctors do what they do. I definitely have more appreciation for doctors. This is hard.