Secret Cancer

Today, is the end of Christmas break and everyone is going back to work and school. Life is returning to normal for most people around us but not us. Our kids are going back to school today after a traumatic Christmas and New years. I’m worried about how they are going to handle this. How will they feel when everyone starts talking about their Christmas breaks? Will they be able to handle the school day? How long will the scars take to heal? Will school be a relief from all the stress, worry and anxiety at home? I wrote to their teachers explaining our traumatic experience. I hope that was enough.

My husband has worked hard all his life and now he is reduced to sitting on the couch watching life go by. I wonder how he feels not being able to get up and work. Will he be able to get off that couch? Will we be able to leave the house? Maybe go for a walk? What will our new normal look like?

I have been so busy taking care of the kids and my sick husband to even think about what our lives are going to be like. People say having a routine is important. Even his parents left us to continue on with their normal routine. I am left worrying about our future and about our present. What will life be like? What will be our normal?