Secret Cancer

How do I move on from this? The air has been sucked out of me. It is like I cannot breathe. A big part of me is missing and I just want it back. My husband and I always had a clear path and direction we were moving towards. Now there is nothing, no future, no path. Where do I go from here?

How do I move on from this? My heart is shattered. The hole is getting bigger not smaller. I miss him so much it is physically painful. I reach out for comfort but he is not there. I reach out for advice but he is not there. Where do I go from here?

How do I move on from this? People say that I am strong and will get through this, but what if I do not want to be strong. My husband was strong when I needed a break. He picked up the slack when I was tired. Am I allowed to be tired and weak, when there is no one to pick up the slack? Where do I go from here?