During my husbands treatment there is always a halfway point where you get a scan and run some blood test to see how the treatment is working. Our doctors meeting did not go so well. First the doctor is super hopeful bc he can see that the treatment is slowing down growth and even shrinking the cancer. We think this is positive until we ask a very specific question, what is the difference in size of the tumor.
We didn’t think to ask about specifics of the cancer and how it came back before Christmas. We just thought there was just one tumor. We were so wrong. The two lung nodules are still there but not growing that’s the only positive. My husband has five tumors on his liver and two swollen lymph nodes. How could we have not known this?
Great the treatment is working but what do we do with this new information. It hit us hard. We also realized during the meeting that his cancer isn’t curable. He will have to under go new treatments every few months for the rest of his life, if we are lucky.
We deal with this devastating news differently. I literally shut down and stop living life. I just watch Netflix and drink a lot of wine. He dives into work and focuses on home improvement projects. Just anything to keep him busy. We both agree on one thing through, and that is making our kids a priority, meaning that no matter what we make sure our kids have a happy positive daily life.
Secret Cancer 
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